Growing Pains.

Growing pains. The things that kept you up in fourth grade when you could of sworn you felt the bones in your body shifting and growing and you cry from you room for you mom to bring you Motrin and water to bed because your knees hurt so bad. The things that follow you into adulthood in just different ways. Its no longer not sleeping cause your legs are growing, its not sleeping because someone at work said something to upset you and you cant let it go, or maybe because you have no idea how you are going to last two years longer in college than you originally intended on .

Growing pains exist in the middle of the day when you're struck with the realization that you aren't exactly where you want to be or where you imagined to be at this time in your life. And stifling it all in and building up the anxiety and angst. I find myself dwelling on the fact that Im single, and that I imagined being close to married by now (Give ten year old me a break okay. She had big dreams) or that I should graduate college in four years (which I just learned will take me 6 years total). basically all of these plans I had made Im needing to shift around and it hurts. It hurts to not be in control but theres also beauty in not being in control all the time. Theirs freedom and release In doing everything you possibly can and letting go of what you cant.

Growing pains aren't something you ever really grow out of. And the more I read blog posts from women older than me, or books from strong christian women its clear tht growing pains of some degree will always exist. What changes is your ability to handle them. You cant change the situation always but you CAN change how you handle it. So equipping yourself with the right tools. Ill link a couple posts on books I love that help me figure out how to handle different growing pains (like stress, anger and rejection). 

And what better way to show an example of what I am saying than with a clip from The Fresh Prince of  Bel Air. (Watch from 3:15-3:40)